I Release You
I spent some time at your grave today
Seeking comfort in some small way
After crying tears and weeping endlessly
My mind was opened and I did see
You were not there for me to find
Nor did I see any such sign
I realized what I already knew
You are in my heart, with a love so true
A calmness crept into my mind
And strengthed as I sat there for a time
Today’s goodbyes were different than before
It seems I may have closed one door
A door held open until I was ready to see
Where I could find you was within me
To understand that where I can find you whole
Is deep within my very own soul
I feel as if I have released you today
And live with your memories in my own way
My grief is still raw and will always be
I now own it as part of my own history
Go now my son, and be who you are
To be my angel always near yet afar
Coming close whenever my needs are great
And always on the November 10th date
Exactly a year it took for me to understand
My grief may be now but the future is in His hands
Tonight, somehow I see clearly through the pain
And know I am releasing you to Him, my son Wayne
We will be together with our Lord someday
Until then, my love for you will grow in its own way
EA Gay
November 10, 2004
8:01pm